| Saturday December 3rd; 11am EST (NYC) |
[Saturday
December 3rd, 2011 at 5:01pm] |
Ex. Haus. Ted.
Work is killing me. School is killing me. I will definitely be glad when winter break rolls around. For the moment, I'm busy cramming for finals when I'm not at work.
On the bright side, I have this weekend off. Sleeping is going to be a major theme.
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| Saturday September 10th; 1pm EST |
[Saturday
September 10th, 2011 at 6:52pm] |
There's nothing like a really good dream to make you never want to get out of bed. Luckily, it's my day off, so I am actually able to give in to that desire.
Private to AllenaYou didn't actually want to go anywhere tonight, did you? /Private
Private to SelfHoly fuck, that was some dream. I... it was like she was right there. It was like it was real. I've barely been able to stop touching her since we woke up. It's been.. five minutes and all I want to do is fuck her again.
I'm NOT complaining, but FUCK.. I don't know where that dream came from. I'm just glad it's my day off. /Private
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| Saturday August 13th; 12:05pm EST |
[Friday
August 12th, 2011 at 9:17pm] |
I'm having a bad fucking day and I've barely been awake a few hours. My girlfriend's in a mood and won't tell me why My brother's getting out of jail. Early release for good behavior or some shit. How do I know this? I got a letter. He needs a place to stay.
Do you think "fuck no" is too strong a response?
Also, just checked the mail. Lots of bills and a rejection letter. Fantastic.
Fuck this day. I'm going to find something to do.
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| thursday november 11; 4pm est |
[Thursday
November 11th, 2010 at 10:57am] |
private to close friends.I just gave the novel I started during Nano last year to a publisher. Am I insane? He said they'd be in touch, but I think that's what they say to everyone, right?
I hate waiting. /
My homework is caught up and I have a day off. I think tonight might be a good night to go out.
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| Monday October 18; 4pm EST |
[Monday
October 18th, 2010 at 4:24pm] |
It's nice to have a couple of days off. It would be nicer if my professors didn't feel the need to pile on so much homework. I'm glad this is my last year of college.
{Private to Allena}Do you want to go out or stay in tonight, baby?
{/Private to Allena}
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| Wednesday May 5 | 10:45pm EST (NYC) |
[Wednesday
May 5th, 2010 at 10:47pm] |
[Private]
Holy. Fucking. Shit.
Allena gave me these books. They're... well, they're not my usual thing, but I couldn't seem to put them down. It's fucking weird, but I really felt drawn to one of the characters. I got this really crazy sense of deja vu as I read. I've dreamed a lot of it. It feels as though I've actually lived it. That's crazy, though, right? It's impossible.
It just feels so... The dreams have gotten worse, more vivid. And the woman I keep dreaming about has her face. Allena's. That has to be a coincidence. It can't be I don't even know. I've got to talk to her about this.
[/Private]
[Allena]
Why did you I think I might be Do you believe in reincarnation?
[/Allena]
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| Thursday February 11; 8am EST (NYC) |
[Thursday
February 11th, 2010 at 4:40pm] |
[Blocked from Allena/Anyone who would tell her]
Enough. Fucking enough. For the past few nights, I've had these stupidly vivid dreams where I'm forced to watch my girlfriend fuck her ex-boyfriend. We're all dressed differently, like something out of a fantasy novel.
I don't know what the fuck is up with them, but it's making it hard to sleep and I'm fucking tired of them. I'm in a fucking foul mood and I need to get over it before I have to go in to work again.
Fuck this. I'm going back to sleep. I swear, I'll drink myself into a coma if that's what I need to do to get some fucking sleep.
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| Friday January 8, 2010; 6:10pm EST (NYC) |
[Friday
January 8th, 2010 at 7:03pm] |
I am having a fantastic birthday. My girlfriend is made of amazingness. She woke me with breakfast in bed this morning and it was pretty damn good. Not to mention that I don't think we got out of bed until about twenty minutes ago. That might be an exaggeration, but still.
Jeremy was awesome enough to give me the day off and it's been nice to just be lazy for a day. Even if lazy probably isn't accurate. My girlfriend has plenty of stamina.
We're about to head out for a movie now. I'm thinking Daybreakers. I think I may even let my girl buy me dinner before we go to the theater.
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| December 3; 11:38am EST (NYC) |
[Thursday
December 3rd, 2009 at 11:34am] |
December! Can you believe that?
I actually managed to hit my goal for NanoWriMo and I suppose it's not the worst thing I've ever written. I could be better, though. Maybe I'll work on it some more. Or maybe I will write something else entirely, I'm not sure.
Thanksgiving was actually pretty nice this year. I didn't bother celebrating last year, because I was in England, but my amazingly sexy British girlfriend and I cooked a simple feast and had my brothers the ones I can stand, anyway over. It went amazingly well considering most of out family gatherings usually involve someone getting punched
[Private to Self; Readable by close friends who are not Allena.]I've been saving up for Christmas, but I have NO idea what to get my girlfriend. I want something.. special. I don't know. What to you get to show a girl she's the one without actually, you know, proposing. I don't think we're ready for that, yet, but I want her to know.. she's not just another girlfriend to me. She's.. special. We're just not into that sappy stuff and I don't know what I can give her than won't make her want to either gag or throw it at me. [/Private.]
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| Thursday November 5; 8:18am EST (NYC) |
[Thursday
November 5th, 2009 at 8:14am] |
23567 / 50000 words. 47% done!
I'm actually amazed that I have written as much as I have, considering that I seem to have started over about twelve times. I had the last couple of days off, though, so I have had a little more time to write and I think I've finally gotten into a groove of something that does not completely suck.
I do feel badly for my poor girlfriend who has had to deal with be holing myself up with the computer and taking very few breaks as I try to crank something out. I'll have to make it up to her once my Nano is finished.
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| Sunday August 30; 1:34pm EST |
[Sunday
August 30th, 2009 at 10:33am] |
Day off, oh, how I love you. It feels like I haven't had one of those in ages. I've been picking up extra shifts, trying to save up some money so I can get Allena something nice since school is about to start and I won't be able to do so soon. It's been pretty much insane at the restaurant, too. Business is booming, which is a good thing and I'm happy for Jeremy, but I am definitely glad to have an entire day where I don't have to leave the apartment if I don't want to.
Speaking of which, I think I may go see if I can convince my amazingly beautiful girlfriend to order some Chinese and put in a movie.
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| Friday July 24; 2:30PM EST |
[Friday
July 24th, 2009 at 4:29pm] |
So, my girlfriend kind of just showed up on my doorstep awhile back. Took me completely by surprise. Pretty fucking amazing, don't you think? Aside from the fact that she punched one of my best friends after getting the complete wrong idea It wasn't quite the perfect reunion, but I have to say that I am loving having her here. After all, if I have to be stuck in New York now, I'm glad I have Allena here with me. Waking up with her next to me every day does not remotely suck.
[Ana]
I know she didn't make the absolute best first impression on you, but you're one of my best friends and.. would you hate me if I asked you to come by for dinner and a proper introduction? One that doesn't involve fisticuffs. Unless you're both cool with a nice mud pit or something, because you're both pretty hot and I wouldn't mind watching that. ;)
Seriously, though. Dinner? Civil conversation? I miss you.
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| Sunday May 10; 8:49PM EST |
[Sunday
May 10th, 2009 at 8:49pm] |
I still haven't had any luck in getting my student visa reinstated. The University is allowing me to complete the term via distance education, at least, but it looks like I may have to look into continuing my education here. In addition to the issues with my visa, it looks like the funding for my scholarship has been killed.
Fortunately, I have managed to find myself a job in New York. It's not the best paying gig ever, but it's enough that I can afford to pay rent on a crappy apartment, but I have invested in plenty of locks, at least.
And it's Mother's Day. I fucking hate this day.
I've been spending my weekend in Atlanta. Ana is graduating tomorrow. I guess that's one nice thing about being stuck in the States. I get to watch one of my best friends graduate from college.
I think I'd still rather be in London. I miss Allena almost more than I can stand
I need a drink.
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| Sunday April 19; 6:20am EST |
[Sunday
April 19th, 2009 at 6:19am] |
I can't believe this. I can't fucking believe this.
I just said goodbye to Allena. Something fucking happened to my student visa and they won't let me go back to England. What the fuck? This is what I fucking get for deciding a trip to Vegas is a good way to spend our spring break.
She came back to New York with me for awhile, but exams start tomorrow, so I just put her on a fucking plane and now she's gone and who the fuck knows when I'm going to fucking see her again. It fucking sucks.
As if that's not bad enough, I'm stuck in fucking New York when I should be back in England finishing out the term. FML. Seriously.
Ana, please tell me you're coming back to New York soon.
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| Thursday December 25; 6:06pm London Time |
[Thursday
December 25th, 2008 at 1:06pm] |
Christmas has been quite pleasant this year. Allena invited me to spend Christmas with her and her father, which has been so much better than going home really nice.
[Private to Self]
She keeps asking me about my family and I get the sense that she isn't satisfied with my vague answers. I really wish she would just let it go, because I definitely don't want to tell her all about.. home. I came here to get away from all of that and the idea of ever taking her home to meet them honestly terrifies me a little.
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I'm planning to sneak away with her in a bit, if we can, for a slightly more private celebration.
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